Once again for the third time the shitty new cambridge park and ride system has made me late. Which leaves me no time to get lunch. Which means I’ll have to live off an apple.
Have I mentioned my jobs means I constantly have to be standing/walking for 7 hours. Which is actually kind of tiring. Hahahhahahahhahahahhahahhabahhahhahahahahhahahhahahahhsjahsjjajajajjahhahahah.
Did I mention I also ate no meals yesterday too?

92 Things

aboxoftreasures tagged me so i’ll do it as they’ve tagged me in like 2 things now and I suck. But i’m not tagging 25 people. Too much effort.

RULES:
Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 92 truths about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = Coke Zero
2. last phone call = Older brother.
3. last text message = Mother
4. last song you listened to = Something on the radio?
5. last time you cried = Today from the pain is this gorram migraine.

HAVE YOU EVER: 
6. dated someone twice = No
7. been cheated on = No
8. kissed someone & regretted it = Yahh
9. lost someone special = Yup
10. been depressed = Hahahhahahhahahaha. sigh (14 years and counting folks)
11. been drunk and threw up = The whole first year of uni

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 
Black, red, and purple

IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU: 
15. made a new friend = Uhhhh… I dunno. Possibly no?
16. fallen out of love = What is love
17. laughed until you cried = Two words…. Achievement Hunter
18. met someone who changed you = maybe?
19. found out who your true friends are = maybe….?
20. found out someone was talking about you = …. maybe….?
21. kissed anyone on your facebook friends list = PFFFT I haven’t kissed anyone since….. that one night stand I had like a long time ago now. WOW my life

GENERAL: 
22. how many people on your facebook friends list do you know in real life = 80% of them
24. do you have any pets = 2 dogs and 2 cats.
25. do you want to change your name = Yeah I actually need to do another deed poll to get rid of my middle name. I should do that so I can get a passport.
26. what did you do for your last birthday = I was hungover
27. what time did you wake up today = 6.30? (on my day off too)
28. what were you doing at midnight last night = Well I was in bed getting a bit spaced out on my migraine nausea meds
29. name something you CANNOT wait for = pay day… every pay day ever
30. last time you saw your mother = Yesterday
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = Get rid of all of my mental illnesses so I can function like a normal human on a daily basis.
32. What are you listening to right now = my laptop fans.
33. have you ever talked to a person named Tom = Yeah tom stole 2 of my fave books. FU TOM
34. what’s getting on your nerves right now = The migraine makes me want to stab myself in the head?
35. most visited webpage(s) = Youtube, Rooster Teeth, and Achiement Hunter
36. blood type = Red
37. nickname = Ash
38. relationship Status = Single as this tastey pringle i’m eating
39. zodiac sign = That fish one
40. pronouns = they/them
41. elementary school = Middle of Fuck All Lower School
42. high school = Sandy Upper (yeah I don’t care if peeps know. You can’t find me through there “Ashley” P never went there)
43. college = HRC
44. hair color = Naturally…. Blonde. Now… brown/blonde/red?
45. long or short = Shortttttttttttt (but long for how it should be)
47. do you have a crush on someone? I dunno. I had this crush like dream about someone but that was… unusual
48. what do you like about yourself? My most recent photographic project (go look)
50. tattoos = 3. Circle on right arm. Jack Sparrow thing on Left arm. Stay Strong on my hip
51. righty or lefty = Right?
52. first surgery = Nay
53. first piercing = Ears
54. first best friend = Chelsea. But she had to move away as this other family in the village threatened to kill her fam. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHHANAHHHAHHAHAH. The first cause of my depression (i’m over it but still it persists).
55. first sport you joined = Rugby… or maybe Tennis
56. first vacation = Lake District
58. first pair of trainers = …?

RIGHT NOW:
59. eating = dusstttttt
60. drinking = Coke Zero
61. I’m about to = Die from this gorram Migraine
62. listening to = I’m not telling. I hate this artist but can’t stop listening.
63. waiting for = This migraine to fuck off
64. want kids? = I feel like with my short temper I would… probably hurt any kids i’d have in a blind rage. So i’m gunna say no. For the sake of those non existent kids
65. get married? = HAH. Why would I want some expensive party for no reason?
66. career? = Museum in Cambridge as a Gallery Attendant/Proffesional Photographer

WHICH IS BETTER: 
67. lips or eyes = Eyes
68. hugs or kisses = I dunno.
69. shorter or taller = Taller
70. older or younger = Depends?
71. romantic or spontaneous = Aren’t they sorta the same?
72. nice stomach or nice arms = I want both as I have neither
73. sensitive or loud = Uhhh I dunno
74. hook-up or relationship = I don’t know if I can even do relationships as i’ve only ever had hookups so HOOKUPS
75. trouble maker or hesitant = Uhhhh

HAVE YOU EVER: 
76. kissed a stranger = DUH
77. drank hard liquor = Yes
78. lost glasses/contacts = Only temporarily
79. sex on first date = I’ve never dated so I don’t care
80. broke someone’s heart = I dunno, ask the person I fucked over that one time 3 years ago. fucking fuck twat
81. had your own heart broken = ohhhhhhh yeah
82. been arrested = ahhahahah. Yes. twice? or was it three?
83. turned someone down = Date? yes. Sex….? Yes………?
84. cried when someone died = Man when Gus died in the TFIOS book I bawled
85. fallen for a friend = Once again I go back to that one person three years ago who I’d known forever I kinda had a thing for that whole time. Hey bronn if you’re out there.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. yourself = Fuck no
87. miracles = Define?
88. love at first sight = What is love
89. heaven = I believe in it in the sense that it’s depicted in paintings?
90. santa claus = Dude I sussed that shit out when I was like 5
91. kiss on the first date = Never had a date
92. angels = Once again. Paintings.

I tag everyone who follows me cos i’m lazy and migrainey.

leejax
leejax:

shante-atthedisco:

same

For eight months, the only social life/interaction I had was with cashiers. Sometimes, I would buy fast food just to make sure I had human interaction that day. All of my hobbies/jobs were/are pretty solitary, so I simply wouldn’t encounter other people in my day to day life. I don’t mind the solitude and isolation, but when it is taken to the extreme, reality seems to warp. Now that I have the opportunity to interact with more people, I find myself unable to relate to them or keep up with conversations. I find most interactions leave me empty and dissatisfied. People make small talk to pass the time, but rarely is meaning conveyed. This leads me to once again crave the isolation. Sometimes the loneliness is disheartening, but ultimately, it has become my comfort and safety.

leejax:

shante-atthedisco:

same

For eight months, the only social life/interaction I had was with cashiers. Sometimes, I would buy fast food just to make sure I had human interaction that day. All of my hobbies/jobs were/are pretty solitary, so I simply wouldn’t encounter other people in my day to day life. I don’t mind the solitude and isolation, but when it is taken to the extreme, reality seems to warp. Now that I have the opportunity to interact with more people, I find myself unable to relate to them or keep up with conversations. I find most interactions leave me empty and dissatisfied. People make small talk to pass the time, but rarely is meaning conveyed. This leads me to once again crave the isolation. Sometimes the loneliness is disheartening, but ultimately, it has become my comfort and safety.